In the course of the newest episode of the Baldwin household’s TLC collection, The Baldwins Hilaria and Alec returned house after his costs within the trial had been dismissed and shared among the “what ifs” that went by their minds.

Hilaria admitted that she wasn’t certain what the end result could be, telling the cameras, “That is going to sound so silly however I wrote the youngsters — that I left right here — little letters and hid them. I advised my pal the place they had been in case one thing occurred to us.”

Alec and Hilaria share seven youngsters collectively: Carmen, 11, Rafael, 9, Leonardo, 8, Romeo, 6, Eduardo, 4, María, 4 and Ilaria, 2. Their eldest beforehand voiced her considerations on display concerning the authorized points involving her father.

“Carmen requested me final evening, ‘When daddy goes to New Mexico, do I say goodbye to him? Do I say goodbye to him in a particular approach?’” Hilaria recalled earlier than getting emotional. “[She was so afraid] that when Alec and I’m going into court docket that any individual goes to shoot us.”

In a earlier episode, Hilaria additionally recalled how a lot Alec struggled within the preliminary months following the capturing.

“I discovered these textual content messages the opposite day between us and the day after he mentioned he needed to kill himself,” she revealed. “He has survivor’s guilt … He needs it had been him. He would change locations in a second.”

Hilaria continued, “This has affected his well being and his psychological well being tremendously. Up to now few years, he has had coronary heart issues and, a number of occasions, he fainted.”

Alec charged in January 2023 with involuntary manslaughter in cinematographer Halyna Hutchins’ dying. The actor was holding the prop gun that was fired on the film set in October 2021, which killed Hutchins and injured director Joel Souza, however has insisted he is not chargeable for the incident.

He pleaded not responsible and the costs had been dropped in April 2023, however he was indicted once more in reference to the dying of Hutchins. The second case was finally dismissed by the choose and Alec has since filed a lawsuit accusing the prosecution workforce of malicious prosecution and civil rights violations.

“The previous three years has been a major chunk of my youngsters’s lives,” Hilaria mentioned in February episode of the present. “Our older ones had been a lot youthful, however have had the notice due to their age to have the ability to perceive what is going on on. The youngest three do not know a life with out this.”

Alec, in the meantime, lamented on how “all the things was so completely different earlier than” the capturing.

“Our lives are very, very completely different,” he mentioned. “Our kids have been compelled to acknowledge that. They have been compelled to cope with that, with us, in their very own approach.”

The Baldwins airs on TLC Sundays at 10:00 p.m. ET.