A YouTuber recognized for working an animal rescue dedicated to saving foxes has died by suicide, in keeping with her husband.

Mikayla Raines, the lady behind the SaveAFox pages on YouTube, Fb and Instagram, boasting tens of millions of followers, took her personal life following years of on-line bullying, her husband Ethan stated in an emotional video shared on-line Monday.

Raines, 29, leaves behind her husband and daughter, Freya.

In a 12-minute video posted to the rescue’s pages, Ethan stated he and his household “have suffered a loss that’s unimaginable.”

Explaining Raines was on the autism spectrum and in addition handled each melancholy and borderline persona dysfunction, Ethan shared she was “at all times in an out of various sorts of remedy” and tried “totally different temper stabilizers and meds.” These, nevertheless, by no means “appeared to assist.”

Per Ethan, Raines “took damaging to coronary heart,” claiming that over the past “few years” there was “a gaggle of individuals” who’ve been “throwing grime on Mikayla’s identify and rescue.”

“Most of those are folks she knew and a few of them are different animal sanctuaries. They constantly unfold ridiculous claims and rumors and, being the delicate human she was, Mikayla took all of it to coronary heart,” he defined. “It damage her, it damage her lots.”

“Just lately, a number of the impolite phrases, accusations and name-calling got here from a few of these she thought of shut buddies. I feel all of this stems from jealousy and envy, however she felt as if your complete world had turned towards her,” he continued, earlier than revealing her loss of life by suicide.

“She could not bear what she was feeling any longer and he or she ended her life and it breaks my coronary heart that somebody who’s selfless and devoted her life to animals, may have a lot negativity pointed at her,” he stated via tears. “Why? That is all I can ask, is why? In a world that is crammed with darkness, she was simply gentle. She was simply gentle.”

Ethan then shared a message to “these of you that pushed her to this, each one in every of you that that been chargeable for making her really feel this manner.”

“I want you needed to really feel what she felt. I want you needed to really feel what I really feel. I want you needed to see me discover her and I want you needed to watch me carry out CPR on her for quarter-hour till the primary responders arrived,” he exclaimed. “And I want you needed to watch helplessly as paramedics tried to revive her lifeless physique. I want you needed to hear the screams and cries of her household. I want you needed to see tiny, heartbroken Freya attempt to perceive why she will by no means see her mommy once more.”

“I want you understood what you have been doing earlier than you probably did it, earlier than it needed to go this far, and I want you understood phrases to have actual and horrible penalties,” he concluded. “In the event you solely have damaging rubbish to say, simply shut up.”

Ethan shared that this was “a video I by no means deliberate on making,” praising his spouse for her years of advocacy and the way she devoted her life to defending animals. Calling her “one of the vital selfless folks I’ve ever recognized,” he stated that “not having her right here makes every little thing really feel empty.”

He additionally urged anybody feeling hopeless to succeed in out for assist, and advised others to “keep watch over these round you.” Regardless of feeling like he has a “literal gap in my chest,” Ethan then vowed to proceed her advocacy work and hold SaveAFox going with out her.

“I’ve to see her targets and goals realized,” he stated, “I like you Mikayla … I’ll at all times love you a lot. And I miss you.”

Raines began the Minnesota-based SaveAFox again in 2017.

In the event you or somebody you understand is fighting melancholy or has had ideas of harming themselves or taking their very own life, get assist. The Nationwide Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255) supplies 24/7, free, confidential help for folks in misery.