The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives star appeared on the Might 21 episode of The Squeeze with Tay Lautner, the place she opened up about turning into a dad or mum at 16 and the trauma she carried together with her after experiencing years of sexual abuse.

“I believe I acquired pregnant actually a 12 months, virtually a 12 months precisely after I moved out of my home at 15,” Matthews, now 25, revealed. “After which I am leaping into now being a mother and elevating a child at 16, 17. I believe all that was traumatizing, but in addition it was so useful being with somebody like Jace as a result of, once more, he is been like so affected person with me and he like really needs me to be one of the best model of myself.”

Matthews met her now-husband Jace Terry — who’s 5 years her senior — shortly after transferring out of her mom’s residence. The pair have been launched by her sister and his roommate, and only one month later, she was pregnant.

“I had solely recognized him for like a month earlier than,” she recalled.

On the time, she was staying together with her sister, had dropped out of highschool, and felt utterly disconnected from her friends. “I did not actually inform any of my pals. I type of simply dropped off the face of the earth,” Matthews shared.

She came upon she was pregnant after passing out within the sauna.

“My mother took me to the hospital,” she advised Lautner, the place blood exams revealed she was within the early phases. Matthews stated she “instantly” knew she wished to “preserve” the newborn, and praised Jace for his response to the stunning information. “His quick response was to assist no matter I wished to do,” Mathews stated.

Whereas her relationship together with her mother was strained, Matthews stated she leaned on her throughout that point as a result of “none of my pals knew. So I used to be simply so remoted and alone.”

“At this level, I barely knew Jace … So, though I wasn’t comfy round [my mom], it was identical to extra comfy than with Jace at that time,” she continued. “However even that was troublesome,” she added, noting that “Being round her was clearly very triggering.”

Mikayla and Jace welcomed their son Beckham in 2017 and tied the knot the next 12 months.

They’ve since go on to welcome daughter Haven in 2019 and son Tommie in 2021. The couple is presently anticipating their fourth baby. However even after turning into a mother, Matthews stated she struggled with the unresolved trauma.

“I nonetheless internalized all of that harm and abuse,” she admitted, including that it wasn’t till years later that she began going to remedy. Extra points emerged throughout her second being pregnant, when she seen she and Jace began having struggles with intimacy.

“Intercourse grew to become very triggering,” she shared, including that at that time, Jace did not know in regards to the abuse. Making an attempt to push by for the sake of their relationship, Matthews stated “subconsciously I used to be resenting him and making him the abuser the place it wasn’t the case.”

Nonetheless in remedy, Matthews says she’s been in a position to acknowledge her triggers and has begun therapeutic.

“I’ve realized so much by remedy,” she stated, explaining that she began opening as much as Jace in regards to the abuse “six years in the past.”

“I needed to type of inform him as a result of it could get so irritating,” she defined. “And I really feel like numerous that anger was being placed on him and he felt numerous rejection of like, ‘I am not engaging. My spouse does not wish to sleep with me.’ And that made me really feel so responsible.”

Opening up about her previous traumas helped the couple develop stronger, with Mathews calling her husband “actually affected person.”

“He is very mild with me as a result of he is aware of the state of affairs,” she added.

The Nationwide Sexual Assault Phone Hotline — 800.656.HOPE (4673) — gives free, 24/7 assist for these in want.