On the June 3 episode of Reclaiming with Monica Lewinsky, the 42-year-old actress recalled the trauma she endured on the set of a tv sequence she joined after wrapping One Tree Hill in 2012.

Whereas Bush did not title the present outright, she starred as Detective Erin Lindsay on Chicago P.D. from 2014 to 2017 following her time on Tree Hill, and the timeline seems to line up.

Bush advised Lewinsky that being forged within the unnamed sequence was a profession milestone, however ended up being a nightmare.

“It was on my bucket listing,” she mentioned. However as soon as on set, she says it shortly become a nightmare. “I suffered each type of abuse you’ll be able to think about with somebody sufficiently old to be my father,” she shared.

The expertise was so damaging, mentioned Bush, that  her physique started to interrupt down.

“I had the chance after two years to go,” Bush defined. “I did the factor I realized to do and mentioned, ‘I cannot have my integrity diminished by another person’s habits. I can be unflappable. I’ll come to work and do my job.’ And I could not.”

Detailing the devastating bodily results of the expertise, Bush mentioned she “was in bodily hell.” The expertise even spurred on a “spontaneous sickness,” that included being “lined in hives” and affected by hair loss and weight fluctuations.

“As an extrovert who loves individuals, to be hit with anxiousness in such a approach that I may barely be out of the home; if individuals touched me in public, I’d soar out of my pores and skin,” she continued. “I could not speak to individuals anymore. I could not speak to strangers anymore. I couldn’t be checked out anymore, particularly within the work atmosphere.”

The actress additionally mentioned the job modified her demeanor, making her extra guarded than she’d ever been.

“As a result of I needed to go to work prepared for conflict on a regular basis, I needed to study the place to face to not get elbowed within the ribs or the way to block a scene to not be touched. It was simply exhausting,” Bush recalled.

She in the end left the Chicago P.D. in April 2017, simply months earlier than the #MeToo motion exploded. She claimed that later that yr, she acquired a telephone name from a community govt with an apology.

“By October, I bought a name from an govt apologizing for what they’d carried out and never carried out,” she mentioned. “And [they] mentioned, ‘We’re very conscious we simply made it out of that unscathed.’”

Bush beforehand opened up about her resolution to exit Chicago P.D. in 2017 on Refinery 29′s Unstyled podcast, saying, “It was then that I noticed I might been drowning. It was then that I knew simply how depressing I used to be going to work each day. I needed to respect myself in a state of affairs the place I did not really feel revered.”

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